[She can suit herself! Frankly, Maya's kind of regretted hiring him for the magazine on more than one day... "Affection", though. Affection. That word. Whoever said anything about affection?
... Huh.
Was attraction the same as affection? Was interest the same as affection? Was thinking someone pretty cute the same as affection? Was treasuring a man's company affection? Was admiring a man's kindness affection? Wasn't the word a little strong for use with anyone she knew here, with anyone she didn't spend all that time with back home? Questions to be thought about at a later point. Maybe.]
If you're asking if he's the only guy who's caught my eye, the answer is no!
[On second thought-- First, "affection". Now this one. For once, Maya's feeling a little uncertain in her own conversation, although she definitely could have expected this type of language to pop up. If she was aware.]
Partnered...? No. What do you mean? Should I be?
[They're honest queries. Had people already found lasting lovers here? Is that what she's talking about? ... If it was, wouldn't it already be obvious if she had found one herself?]
[ if frühling has no concept of friendship, what hope would she have for one of love? to her the engagement is a business, a strategy, especially in accordance with zodion's rules. an amorous relationship seems impractical. ]
No. Merely wondering if you're the type to plan or let the curses make a fool out of you. Or perhaps you follow impulses, as you seem to have done at the beach. Or am I mistaken?
[So it was something more basic. Something she's more familiar with. Good.
Maya Amano is definitely someone to make strategies out of her engagements.]
You might be mistaken. I do have a plan. I have had a plan.
[Really, since the end of her first month. She made a deal alongside a man who became her close friend in the span of a short time. They agreed to use each other for sex if they ever needed it. ... Since she does have a plan, it only follows that the time she's suffered curses or given into split-second impulses isn't as bad as it could be.]
I believe the best way a woman can get along here is to
[Come on. You can say it, right, Maya?]
have sex only with the men she trusts. I've done my best to always only do that, although of course no one can be perfect here... If I think of the man I trusted and used to have an arrangement with, I guess it's like that. I guess I could have called him a partner.
[That he isn't, but she still has men she trusts a lot here even if she currently doesn't also "have an arrangement with" them. ... She should really get on fixing that.]
A belief I have in someone, that they have a good heart at their very core, that they'll care for and look out for others -- me included, maybe -- as much as I and others do for them. Reliable, good, kind. It's a kind of expected bond we're somehow able to set up between us for decent reasons. To put it bluntly, when I trust someone I trust them with both my mind and my body.
[ in other words, for as mighty and powerful as she holds herself, frühling wouldn't take such risks. she sees it as submission and the permission to control. no one but herself is privileged to such a position.
unlike maya, she's very closed off. it most probably shows in how doesn't add any more to her comment. ]
[Not even when those risks, or at least some form of them, are basically there anyway? Ask Maya if she'd rather be caught outside at the tail end of her fourth week with Izaya Orihara or comfortably in Claire Stanfield's apartment, and her answer is pretty predictable.
It is also in reaction to some very tangible risks.]
It's not dangerous, because the ones I trust most will never hurt me.
[Ironic, as her conversation partner will no doubt grasp with no backdrop of information.]
Then there will be a day you come to regret that naivety.
Those who cannot rely on themselves will never survive.
[ zodion is something of a paradise where nothing seems to perish. with only the return of worship, the gods provide all a human could need or want. but frühling would wish for the girl to remember the land their cruise took them to, the abandon, the sparsity, the decay. death, betrayal, neglect—suffering any of these, oneself is the only dependable source.
that is, if they're strong enough to withstand it. ]
[Had she the ability to read minds, it isn't like Maya would react with shock that she'd forgotten that other continent, its people and its state, at all; she hasn't, and in fact she might be said to be one of the residents here who thinks on them most often. Nor does she feel her trust in others necessitates the conclusion she doesn't rely on herself, see her own self as a very dependable resource... Right now, though, it's easiest just to address this next question. She does wonder where Frühling is going with it.]
[Why would it be? She guesses sometimes she feels tired and slow if she overuses her powers too much, but that's not really what the other is referring to, is it?]
Balance is a universal law. There are always prices to pay. Because these abilities don't exist in my world, I'm merely curious about the specifics of it. I found out from another magic-user that his abilities are fuelled by his life force. I wished to know if your healing powers required the same.
It's because one person can be so vulnerable, isn't it?
[Or at least... this is sort of what she thinks Frühling is trying to say, with her entire sidetrack about the healing. Maybe?]
To be a healer implies you heal others. You use your own power to help other people, and if you use enough of it, you get weaker. Which is "foolish", because you're compromising part of yourself for others.
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... Huh.
Was attraction the same as affection? Was interest the same as affection? Was thinking someone pretty cute the same as affection? Was treasuring a man's company affection? Was admiring a man's kindness affection? Wasn't the word a little strong for use with anyone she knew here, with anyone she didn't spend all that time with back home? Questions to be thought about at a later point. Maybe.]
If you're asking if he's the only guy who's caught my eye, the answer is no!
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If she was aware.]Partnered...? No. What do you mean? Should I be?
[They're honest queries. Had people already found lasting lovers here? Is that what she's talking about? ... If it was, wouldn't it already be obvious if she had found one herself?]
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No. Merely wondering if you're the type to plan or let the curses make a fool out of you. Or perhaps you follow impulses, as you seem to have done at the beach. Or am I mistaken?
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Maya Amano is definitely someone to make strategies out of her engagements.]
You might be mistaken. I do have a plan. I have had a plan.
[Really, since the end of her first month. She made a deal alongside a man who became her close friend in the span of a short time. They agreed to use each other for sex if they ever needed it. ... Since she does have a plan, it only follows that the time she's suffered curses or given into split-second impulses isn't as bad as it could be.]
I believe the best way a woman can get along here is to
[Come on. You can say it, right, Maya?]
have sex only with the men she trusts. I've done my best to always only do that, although of course no one can be perfect here... If I think of the man I trusted and used to have an arrangement with, I guess it's like that. I guess I could have called him a partner.
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How would you define trust, Maya?
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A belief I have in someone, that they have a good heart at their very core, that they'll care for and look out for others -- me included, maybe -- as much as I and others do for them. Reliable, good, kind. It's a kind of expected bond we're somehow able to set up between us for decent reasons. To put it bluntly, when I trust someone I trust them with both my mind and my body.
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[ in other words, for as mighty and powerful as she holds herself, frühling wouldn't take such risks. she sees it as submission and the permission to control. no one but herself is privileged to such a position.
unlike maya, she's very closed off. it most probably shows in how doesn't add any more to her comment. ]
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It is also in reaction to some very tangible risks.]
It's not dangerous, because the ones I trust most will never hurt me.
[Ironic, as her conversation partner will no doubt grasp with no backdrop of information.]
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Have you never been betrayed?
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No. Never.
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Those who cannot rely on themselves will never survive.
[ zodion is something of a paradise where nothing seems to perish. with only the return of worship, the gods provide all a human could need or want. but frühling would wish for the girl to remember the land their cruise took them to, the abandon, the sparsity, the decay. death, betrayal, neglect—suffering any of these, oneself is the only dependable source.
that is, if they're strong enough to withstand it. ]
Your strength lay in healing, did it not?
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Is this performed at any personal expense?
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[Why would it be? She guesses sometimes she feels tired and slow if she overuses her powers too much, but that's not really what the other is referring to, is it?]
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Balance is a universal law. There are always prices to pay. Because these abilities don't exist in my world, I'm merely curious about the specifics of it. I found out from another magic-user that his abilities are fuelled by his life force. I wished to know if your healing powers required the same.
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In tangent. But if you wish to move on, then I must conclude that your willingness to trust your life to anyone but yourself is foolish.
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[Or at least... this is sort of what she thinks Frühling is trying to say, with her entire sidetrack about the healing. Maybe?]
To be a healer implies you heal others. You use your own power to help other people, and if you use enough of it, you get weaker. Which is "foolish", because you're compromising part of yourself for others.
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frühling made it a point to be that person rather the one subjected to it. ]
In summary, yes. Is another truly worth risking your life?
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It's not that my life means little to me, but that the lives of others matter so much.
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{text} it's fine! it was worth the wait welcome back uwu
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